Of expectations of wonder hope…mostly blunder. Of fears..of smears..and recovering years…of unbelievable tears. Of shame of doubt…trying to find my way out. Just let it fill up finally…. Im giving out.. Pretending no more … Lets settle the score.. Im not perfect acting no more… Im fresh out … But full ..so filled out.
I crossed them all.. I gave it all. All before i should have. I took a chance and times up . Update my expected desire. Place feeling a face suggested a name. This time totally different so outcome must change. Im rearranged. The ball’s in your lane. I’ll wait..
Have you ever had a place in you so hidden it exploded when it was touched…it peeled back the shameful cover and bled out the false attached… Caressed it unhooked..unlocked unfolded free from all restrain..then the dive inside released the waters life again did spring… Over the hurt..over the pain..drowned all the terrible things that […]
Stings a bit to admit you loved someone who never loved you . Pains a bit to open with the real to someone who just lies. Creates a place of urgency inside when it must take time to know what’s there in hide. Fixes things to recognize and rise leave all bitter anger and pride […]
I spent tonight on a show attempting to explain my faith…my belief system…and just me. I am in talks no longer than 2minutes before i realised the questions asked were precalculated and my answers were falling on deaf ears. I’ve found myself in similar situation with people i cared for and even those claiming to […]