Over the last several months, I’ve had a sudden exposure to death. How final it is. How over it is. No chance to recover in it. You’re given two choices in death. You can realize it’s there or refuse it and torment . Both are exhausting. Both create a space that can change the rest of your existing. Neither will change the fact that death is everlasting.
I gathered my thoughts and tried to begin to realize what losses I would have. I thought of the I love yous I have given , and those I should have , but didn’t . I don’t want to do it all over. Because it won’t change the reality of where I am now . I miss so much .
But my memory death will not touch …..