I spent tonight on a show attempting to explain my faith…my belief system…and just me. I am in talks no longer than 2minutes before i realised the questions asked were precalculated and my answers were falling on deaf ears. I’ve found myself in similar situation with people i cared for and even those claiming to care for me but im unsure that any of it was real.
I’ve learned to not take words without deed and deed without heart… If its repeated its not a mistake. And to be content where i am. I will not die from hurt.
Now that explanation is no longer necessary…i feel really alive with myself… Thing is i share it with very few.
I can’t live for anyone else but those born of me from now till end. I accept that.